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    A thousand  miles. . . to look at your face to study your eyes to cherish your smile to adore your earring to understand your tattoos to admire your personality to appreciate your style and to applaud your talent It takes a thousand miles  to do all these an yet, it took you seconds to capture me ❤️follow my blog for more!❤️

It's full of monsters, a pool of dominating personality. A game of tricks and lies.  Devils in disguise. Uplifts but two-sided. Called by what is standard. A knife behind his back.  A smile that smirks. A story of survival,  where ever man is an island. ❤️follow my blog for more!❤️

When I was still younger than I am now, I always kept my exam papers on a small tin box and put them inside the cabinet thinking that I might want to see it in the future. The old arts and crafts materials that my mom bought to me 10 years ago might become handful in the future, so I kept it.  Few days ago, I came home in my hometown for summer break and started to declutter my things that I have been keeping for so long. I removed a large pile of my old clothes and rearranged the stuff toys that I got for Christmas back then.  I just discovered that I had a lot of floral and sassy watches and accessories back then and now I realized that I barely have one. I felt laughing knowing about this! I can't believe how kinda girly I was back then. Now that I grew up, I'm more of going for pastels and soft touch of feminity. Now how's that for a transition? Then I pulled out the small tin box I kept for my papers and I thought it's nice to see my good and fail m...

Last March 2017, I have written a very upsetting post that I might say it was the worst experience so far. If you have remembered I wasn't able to walk down the isle on time to receive my 'fake' diploma because of an incomplete thesis.  I had to continue working on the requirement with my groupmates during summer and finally we finished it. I have considered myself a college graduate that time regardless of missed graduation ceremony since I needed to move forward for my plan on going to medical school. That misery got me hitting rock bottom. It was hard to conceal and hush myself from feeling hurt whenever I see my batchmates post graduation pictures on social media. Even now that time has buried the past, I cannot forget the feeling of wanting to detach myself away from my friends in despair. It was a cry of self pity and confusion.  On July 2017, I got accepted in medical school and it was in my second choice of school. I didn't dealt my emotions w...

*listening to Crazy by Aerosmith* So my first year in medical school had just ended and now I'm trying to savor the two months of book-free life! Well, not exactly two months because we'll be having a class review two weeks before our actual class starts.   I don't know what I really feel right now, but I think I'm having a Lucifer  hangover. Have you watch this series yet? Let me know 'cause I want to ramble about why FOX cancelled the show😭 I'm so upset right now! Even if they have announced that they'll air the last two episodes by the end of May, but still! It would be better if they'll save the show! Just to divert my attention, I'm watching another series called How I Met Your Mother. I honestly have to say that the show is quite funny, but sadly I can't take Lucifer off my mind. At least I hope it would be sooner. With an old music playing on the background, I feel a bit sentimental while writing this just like I'm...