How Genuine Self-awareness Change My Game?

It's been a year since I realize I was missing this piece. The very learning I needed to acquire to survive. It was so naïve of me, somewhat a pity to not know deeply its meaning. I have been through shitty times in the middle of my med school years and  knowing about this now made me think that I was really on my edge during those dark times; and I wasn't sure how I went through it given that I was so helpless. Nevertheless, genuine self-awareness was the fruit of that storm.

Self-awareness is so over-rated. We've been taught in school or by motivational writers/speakers on knowing ourselves - our strengths and weaknesses. The things that we want and we don't want, even our insecurities - everything about us in and out encompasses a genuine self-awareness. But the thing is, on self-growth, being aware doesn't end there. We often overlook the very essential element that comes with it and that is its importance.

So why do we need to know the importance of being self-aware?

Simply because this is a foundation to self-care.

Especially when you're in a dreadful season, self-awareness is really a must! I remembered a depressive episode that I went through which I was too naïve to even realize it was really it. All I know that time was I felt like a soulless person. I do my daily routine but everything remains to be just physical. I walk under a sunny, beautiful morning but I cannot feel the joy in it. There was no spark of fire within me, that's what I felt. This continued until I just messed up everything in my life that moment. Another instance was my episodes of headache. I cannot imagine how I physically survive it but it was really a tolerable but depreciating pain inside my brain. It was a grueling time because I had to force myself to study while enduring it -- simply because that time I wasn't aware of self-care. 

All things considered, getting through it pave way of my learning to self-awareness and taking care of myself, despite the damage it cause to me mentally and physically. Now I realized that it's truly necessary to really understand the importance of self-aware. Because even when you're in a hellish season, when you know you're not doing great or you're feeling down -- if you're aware of yourself at that moment, you'll know when to pause and seek help. It's also important to know that not all people, even the ones closest to you, will gonna assume that you need help because they also have their own lives and you cannot really distinguish if a person is okay or not. Sometimes, a depressed person also laughs out loud.

Meanwhile, since last summer I have been practicing self-awareness and self-care and honestly I'm not really consistent with it but I'm still proud of myself for this tad bit improvement. 

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